Today I’m writing in English, because I can’t write Japanese on this OLD mac.
I am so stressed out these days.
Many small things become huge, and I feel like sick.
We’re in final exam now so I think that is a big reason, and not only this reason, many small things make me down.
Sometimes it’s relationship with friends or somebody, and sometimes it is because of myself.
I like here but sometimes I feel like I have not so many friends to hang out with.
It is annoying that I don’t really able to speak English, always I have to think about it.
Classmates chatter makes me down often. They look really fun and talk really fast.
I still don’t have confidence to jump in that conversation.
Actually sometimes I can, but it is hard.
Usually I am doing all right, things are not so bad here.
But once I felt really stress, I can’t do anything, even I have to do a lot of things.
Like today, I really have to practice. But in the practice room, I felt so depressed and couldn’t do that.
Awww due is comming.. I know I have to push myself, but my heart doesn’t follow.
I know it’s not good idea to depend on blog or email, it is like a computer-holic.
But otherwise, how can I handle this?
OK I’ll stop here.. stop writing this kind of thing. I have to move on anyway!